I came to the realization that while I may have only regained about 80% of my former awesomeness, that still qualifies me as an exponent (to borrow something from the Ancient Chinese Series I've been watching the shit out of lately) and in 98% of all situations, that is enough to easily handle any kind of real life situation where those skills might be needed.
I can be happy with this should I never be able to regain more of my awesome. Where I am at now is enough for me to be able to adapt my honest expression (as I get all Jeet Kune Do here) into effectiveness. MS had taken so much of my Art away from me, and although I am at a point that is now acceptable, I am not completely happy with it, and will not stop until I reach not only former levels, but to surpass them.
Hoping that I can get this appointment with the MS certified nurse out of the way stat. Even if the meds only arrest the situation (I'm not hoping for remylenization here...not yet anyways) I want to be on wit it already. I can only make true progress once it happens that there will be no recurrences, and with those recurrences, the MS gains more ground on you. As it is, I am only human and as of yet they don't have a means to repair the damage once done. One can only regain so much in this kind of situation, despite all of one's best efforts.
OK, now to make a visit to Mister Hunter and grab some sleep before I have to work tomorrow, as well as be on the phones to get my MS shit out of the way.
I may take my obese boombox to work because it's region free and I can play my imports at work. Serb chicks dig me. Life is good.
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